Why was it that both grans had to be taken away from her in the same year?
Why was it that the only guy she trusted had to be so cold towards her?
Why?
Now this little girl is me.
I lost both my grandmothers, my cousin, and my great-grandmother within the span of 3 years.
I suffered my first sprain this year.
I lost the people who loved me, and me them.
I'll admit with no doubt that this has to be the worst year I had in my short 14 years on earth.
Although I had my fun times, this is the worst year I have been through. And yes, I know I am not the only one, but growing up as an only child, I don't share my emotions. I hide them away in a bottle, and empty it every year when the year ends, and the new year begins. This has caused me to be harder on myself, asking for perfections whether in school projects or in life (okayy, maybe not in life, but I do try my best).
Why was it that the people I loved so much had to be taken away from me so early in my life. I always assumed that my grandmothers would see me graduate from polytechnic, then university, then get my first job, maybe marriage, then my own home. But no, they were taken away when I was still studying. I couldn't even fulfill my fantasy of being looked after by my grandmother when I got chickenpox.
Why?
Why must my grannys be taken away so early.
I understand that this is a route all must take at one point in time or another, and as much as it hurts, I am, trying to learn how to live with it,and learn to get over it.
They will continue to live on in my heart, and I will live to the best of my abilities, I will live my life to the fullest.
To my grannys: I Love You, and I promise to live my life to the best I can. I will not disappoint the two of you.,. Love ya
Boys, are really not my most important concern, but I am affected as it is right now as I treated him like my best friend.
I'll admit that I have been disappointed by my friends in the past, but I never expected him to do the same. Friends are rarely trust-worthy, but I may have found my place, and he doesn't get a first class seat.
To the guy I am talking about, you know who you are. I just wanna say, Thank You. Thank you for letting me see how cruel this world can be. Thank you for helping me grow into a stronger young adult/ teenager. Thank you for being one of my best friends in the past, and finally, thank you, for being there when I needed some company, and I am sorry you couldn't stay up there in my ranking of friends. I think I have friends who don't just type an ok when I am ranting.
To my readers out there, you all have your past, and if you are in that lowest point in your life, don't worry. Things will get better one day, although I don't know when that they will be. Know that I am trying to climb up the happiness ladder too, and if you ever need anyone to talk to feel free to drop a comment in the comment section below, or if you feel like you don't want to publicise your life, do drop me an email at theluckygal@gmail.com
Finally, before I sign off for the day, a little update on my life.
I'll be flying off to China tomorrow for a school trip for 9 days, and that is basically all that is going on right now, so I'll see you guys again.
Peacing Out
~jessykeejiayi><
