Why? Grans, opposite sex, and my complicated life

There was once a little girl. She lived with her paternal grandmother, but always treasure the time she was given with her maternal granny.
Why was it that both grans had to be taken away from her in the same year?
Why was it that the only guy she trusted had to be so cold towards her?
Why?

Now this little girl is me.

I lost both my grandmothers, my cousin, and my great-grandmother within the span of 3 years.
I suffered my first sprain this year.
I lost the people who loved me, and me them.

I'll admit with no doubt that this has to be the worst year I had in my short 14 years on earth.

Although I had my fun times, this is the worst year I have been through. And yes, I know I am not the only one, but growing up as an only child, I don't share my emotions. I hide them away in a bottle, and empty it every year when the year ends, and the new year begins. This has caused me to be harder on myself, asking for perfections whether in school projects or in life (okayy, maybe not in life, but I do try my best).

Why was it that the people I loved so much had to be taken away from me so early in my life. I always assumed that my grandmothers would see me graduate from polytechnic, then university, then get my first job, maybe marriage, then my own home. But no, they were taken away when I was still studying. I couldn't even fulfill my fantasy of being looked after by my grandmother when I got chickenpox.

Why?

Why must my grannys be taken away so early.

I understand that this is a route all must take at one point in time or another, and as much as it hurts, I am, trying to learn how to live with it,and learn to get over it.

They will continue to live on in my heart, and I will live to the best of my abilities, I will live my life to the fullest.

To my grannys: I Love You, and I promise to live my life to the best I can. I will not disappoint the two of you.,. Love ya

Boys, are really not my most important concern, but I am affected as it is right now as I treated him like my best friend.

I'll admit that I have been disappointed by my friends in the past, but I never expected him to do the same. Friends are rarely trust-worthy, but I may have found my place, and he doesn't get a first class seat.

To the guy I am talking about, you know who you are. I just wanna say, Thank You. Thank you for letting me see how cruel this world can be. Thank you for helping me grow into a stronger young adult/ teenager. Thank you for being one of my best friends in the past, and finally, thank you, for being there when I needed some company, and I am sorry you couldn't stay up there in my ranking of friends. I think I have friends who don't just type an ok when I am ranting.

To my readers out there, you all have your past, and if you are in that lowest point in your life, don't worry. Things will get better one day, although I don't know when that they will be. Know that I am trying to climb up the happiness ladder too, and if you ever need anyone to talk to feel free to drop a comment in the comment section below, or if you feel like you don't want to publicise your life, do drop me an email at theluckygal@gmail.com

Finally, before I sign off for the day, a little update on my life.

I'll be flying off to China tomorrow for a school trip for 9 days, and that is basically all that is going on right now, so I'll see you guys again.

Peacing Out
~jessykeejiayi><

Review: Ghost the Musical

Hey readers,

I'm back. First of all, sorry for disappearing for so long. Secondly, this will be a post about Ghost the Musical, but I promise this is not a sponsored post, after all, I am still a schooling kid.

Now, Ghost the Musical, it really is a musical about love, love between the living and the dead. Molly and Sam are fiances, but Sam has nevered said the three words every girl wants to hear -- I Love You. He always says -- Ditto. One day, after a fight, the duo meets a robber and Sam is shot.

He dies.

Molly is obviously devastated, and drops into a pit of despair. Carl, Sam's colleague and good friend, is there for her but is actually out to harm her. He plots to con Sam's money in order to clear his debt, and actually masterminded the entire incident.

The above is just the most simplified summary of the musical, and there are many more details which will make you laugh, and make you want to cry.

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This musical is different from all the musicals I have attended in the past, and I have watch quite a number since my mother loves this kind of performances and have brought me to those she have attended.

Musicals in this century have moved along with the world, towards technology. Musicals are now more high-tech, with all the spot lights, backdrops and such, the visual is too pleasing to the eye to describe.

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Ghost the Musical is amusical with book and lyrics by Bruce Joel Rubin and music and lyrics by Dave Stewart and Glen Ballard.

Based on the hit 1990 romantic drama film of the same name, the musical had its world premiere at the Manchester Opera House in Manchester in March 2011. Ghost then began its West Endpremiere in summer 2011, opening on 19 July.^[1][2] ABroadway transfer opened in April 2012. It will be touring the UK in 2013, after the London production closed in October 2012.

The plot centres on lovers Sam and Molly, who are attacked as they are returning to their apartment. When Sam dies he becomes caught between the real world and the next. Molly is in danger and Sam cannot leave her. A medium, Oda Mae Brown, helps Sam to get in touch with Molly to warn her.

(wikipedia)

Below, I have the links to the trailer and some pictures. This is really a Must-Watch musical.

https://youtu.be/Sw5a5beiLSw

Venue: MasterCard Theatre at Marina Bay Sands

Ticket Prices, not including booking fee through Sistic:

Reserve: $155

VIP reserve: $175

Cat A: $155

Cat B:$125

Cat C:$105

Cat D:$85

Dates: 4-15 November 2015

Trust me, readers, the visual effects will leave you asking for more, so do go and catch this musical if you have the time.

It really will be worth your time.

That will be all for now, I'll check back in next time.

Cya guys!

Peacing Out

~jessykeejiayi><

Your Daily Motivation- Chapter 7

Hey guys,

I won't say a lot today, as I have quite a bit of work to be done, but

1. Sorry for missing a couple of posts, I swear I'll make up for them one day.

2. Click on the link below for today's motivation.

When taking notes in class, you always start off trying to be all neat and organized and then crumble into a big jumbled mess half way through class — partly because your hand got tired and partly because you may have nodded off for 30 seconds and it all went down hill from there. But as hard as it is to believe, for some people, note-taking is an enjoyable art form. If you're in denial about this breed of student actually existing, just wait until you see the prettiest class notes we were able to dig up on Tumblr. After you check out these note-taking works of art out you won't be able to resist the urge to go and study for your finals. Seriously.

http://www.seventeen.com/life/school/a30734/best-class-notes-study-inspiration/

Did it help? I hope so.

Peacing Out,

~jessykeejiayi><

Your Daily Motivation- Chapter 6

Hey guys,

Sorry for not updating yesterday. I stayed up for the GE2015 results, and woke up really late yesterday.

So today, I'll try to have two post, okay?

1st:

Have a great day ahead!

Peacing Out,

~jessykeejiayi><

Your Daily Motivation- Chapter 5

Hey readers,

I promised that this will be early, and it is okay?

Motivation For You To Study[https://www.examtime.com/blog/study-motivation-tips/]

Let’s face it, studying is not what you want to be doing right now. You want to be playing video games, reading up on your celebrity gossip, hanging out with your friends or watching movies. Even cleaning your room would trump preparing for your exams right about now!

Exam stress is tough but if you want to get somewhere, you have to put the work in. Just like when you’re in the gym and your instructor shouts motivational comments to keep the pressure on, these quotes will help you boost your study motivation to get you over that final hurdle.

No matter what type of student you are, these study motivation quotes will help you focus and see the big picture. Also, check out the top tips at the end for more ways to help you study or have a gander at thesegood habits for a serious student.

P.S. Everyone loved the image at the end on our GoConqr Facebook!

1. For the student who is extremely productive at unimportant things:

2. For the student who needs a reality-check:

3. For the student who is the master of excuses:

 4. For the student who can’t stop procrastinating:

5. For the student who is struggling with their self-belief:

 6. For the student who has big ambitions:

 7. For the student who can only see a mountain:

8. For the student who can’t see the end of the road:

 9. For the student who needs to think about the future:

 10. For the student who doesn’t understand the purpose of mistakes:

And finally………..for every type of student:

When you’re struggling to motivate yourself to study, the key thing is to think about your long-term goal. Some students even find a way to have their goal in front of them; whether it’s on a post-it note, the front page of your notebook, or even the screensaver on your laptop or phone!

Your Daily Motivation- Chapter 4

Hello readers,

I know, I know, today's post is very late, and I am sorry. but I promise it will be earlier tomorrow.

For today, I have yet another story.

The Froggy Story[http://www.ezsoftech.com/stories/encouraging.stories.asp]

A group of frogs were hopping contentedly through the woods, going about their froggy business, when two of them fell into a deep pit. All of the other frogs gathered around the pit to see what could be done to help their companions. When they saw how deep the pit was, the rest of the dismayed group agreed that it was hopeless and told the two frogs in the pit that they should prepare themselves for their fate, because they were as good as dead. Unwilling to accept this terrible fate, the two frogs began to jump with all of their might. Some of the frogs shouted into the pit that it was hopeless and that the two frogs would not be in that situation if they had been more careful, more obedient to the froggy rules, and more responsible. The other frogs continued sorrowfully shouting that they should save their energy and give up, since they were already as good as dead. The two frogs continued jumping as hard as they could and after several hours of desperate effort were quite weary. Finally, one of the frogs took heed to the calls of his fellows. Spent and disheartened, he quietly resolved himself to his fate, lay down at the bottom of the pit and died as the others looked on in helpless grief. The other frog continued to jump with every ounce of energy he had, although his body was wracked with pain and he was completely exhausted. His companions began a new, yelling for him to accept his fate, stop the pain and just die. The weary frog jumped harder and harder and - wonder of wonders! Finally leapt so high that he sprang from the pit. Amazed, the other frogs celebrated his miraculous freedom and then gathering around him asked, "Why did you continue jumping when we told you it was impossible?" Reading their lips, the astonished frog explained to them that he was deaf and that when he saw their gestures and shouting, he thought they were cheering him on. What he had perceived as encouragement inspired him to try harder and to succeed against all odds. This simple Frog story contains a powerful lesson. Your encouraging or positive words can lift someone up and help him or her make it through the day. Your destructive or negative words can cause deep wounds; they may be the weapons that destroy someone's desire to continue trying - or even their life. Your destructive, careless word can diminish someone in the eyes of others, destroy their influence and have a lasting impact on the way others respond to them. Moral of the story: Your encouraging or positive words can lift someone up and help him or her make it through the day. Your destructive or negative words can cause deep wounds; they may be the weapons that destroy someone's desire to continue trying - or even their life. Your destructive, careless word can diminish someone in the eyes of others, destroy their influence and have a lasting impact on the way others respond to them. So if you get the chance, do encourage someone to make their day. You never know when you will need their encouragement another day. That's all for today, I'll check back in on you guys tomorrow. Peacing Out, ~jessykeejiayi><

Your Daily Motivation- Chapter 3

Hello again readers,

I'm back with a story to tell.

A Dish of Ice Cream [www.livin3.com]

In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less, a 10 year old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him.

“How much is an ice cream sundae?”

“50 cents,” replied the waitress.

The little boy pulled his hand out of his pocket and studied a number of coins in it.

“How much is a dish of plain ice cream?” he inquired. Some people were now waiting for a table and the waitress was a bit impatient.

“35 cents,” she said brusquely.

The little boy again counted the coins. “I’ll have the plain ice cream,” he said.

The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice cream, paid the cashier and departed.

When the waitress came back, she began wiping down the table and then swallowed hard at what she saw.

There, placed neatly beside the empty dish,were 15 cents- her tip.

Well, isn't that a beautiful story? How many of us can actually do that? At this point, I would like you guys to take a moment to step back and reflect, how appreciative of the people around us are we? Have we done enough?

Well, just a little food for thought.

With that, I have came to the end of today's post, wishing you an even greater day tomorrow!

Peacing Out,

~jessykeejiayi><

Your Daily Motivation- Chapter 2

Hey readers! 你好！

Your daily motivator is here again.

Remember, stars only shine their brightest in the darkest of skies.

By the way, this is a post typed on my phone, so if the format is different, I apologise.

Cya tomorrow!

Peacing Out,
~jessykeejiayi><

Your Daily Motivation- Chapter 1

Hey Readers,

This is something new I am starting, and hopefully, I will be able to find the strength in me to keep this up.

So anyway, for today:

Guys, don't keep thinking about your next holiday.
Create a life you don't have to escape from.

Afterall, you do spend most of your time in your actual life, not your vacation life.

With this, I'll see you tomorrow.

Peacing Out,
~jessykeejiayi><

Jia You! Add Oil!

Hey Juniors,

Sorry for not writing for so long.

PSLE has started. My cousin is taking his this year too. So here's wishing all of you all the best, and may you achieve the results your desire.

加油Juniors,

You can do it.

Put a little muscle to it.

Hustle hustle, work together,

你们一定可以的！(adapted from NCHS cheer #nchsspirit)

Peacing Out,

~jessykeejiayi

Friends?

We used to tell each other everything,
We used to meet up everyday,
We used to be so close...
Now, I can't meet you for a chat,
I can't meet you for a game,
You don't reply my messages,
Nor do you return my calls.
And I don't know why...

Maybe... I'm just not so important after all...
~Self-composed verse <Maybe, I'm not that important anymore>

Heyy, readers.

I'm feeling rather down today.

Last Thursday, I arranged to play badminton with a friend, who I was really close with, because of the sport I loved. So, today was the day we were supposed to meet up. I went to the agreed location at the agreed time, and guess what? After waiting for half an hour, she still didn't appear.

I called.

I whatsapped.

I messaged.

She didn't reply any of them.

When looking through old Instagram photos, I found some old photos of my badminton days. So many emotions rushed through me at once, but one of the strongest emotion was regret.

I missed the good old days, where the few of us would meet up everyday, without fail, at the badminton court for an hour of game.

I guess, it all ended during PSLE, where we said that we would not meet up so that we can focus on final preparations. After that, we never met up again.

It was even harder when we went to different secondary schools. Our timetables were differnt, we were all busy in our own ways.

Maybe, if we continued meeting up during PSLE period, we would not have grown apart. Amazing what 5 days of exams can do to your friendships.

So here's a piece of advise I wish I know when I was younger: Treasure your friends, even if one day, they betray you or something, you will have memories to fall back on, and going back down that memory lane may be the only thing you have left.

Peacing out,
~jessykeejiayi><

Why I am proud of Singapore

Hello once again, people! Sorry for disappearing for so long. If you follow me on my other social media accounts, you will know that I have been rather swamped by homework and such. But, enough of that, I will try to blog every weekend if I can, alright? Now, let get into the main point of today's blog post. Presenting to you, WHY I AM PROUD OF SINGAPORE!!!!

Now as a 'Lion City Kia', I feel proud of my country, obviously. But I haven't been able to pinpoint exactly what I am proud of, until I decided to sit down, and think through life in Singapore. This was originally an assignment I did for school, but since I am rather proud of my work, I thought that I would publish it here.

Now, what exactly can Singaporeans be proud of of Singapore? Is it people like Amos Yee, Steph Micayle? Or is it people like Mr Lee Kuan Yew? Below is my original list.

1. Walking around alone at night, SAFELY

Now this is an advantage enjoyed by everyone in Singapore, though the same cannot be said for the rest of the world. Especially for women, people can feel safe on the streets, even at night. A main factor, to me, is our street lamps. These brightly lit Streets are contrary to those in other countries, thereby ensuring safety on the streets.

2. Food availability

In Singapore, you will never go hungry. Whether it is at 2 pm, 12 midnight, 12 noon, or even 2 am, as long as one knows where to look, food will be available. This is a sharp contrast to other countries, for example, Mauritius, where I could not find any food for lunch at 3 pm in the afternoon. All the restaurants turned us away, saying that they were preparing for dinner, at 3 o'clock in the afternoon. Great, just great. I ended up having to wait a long time for a small pizza and some fries.

3. Racial harmony

In Singapore today, there are a minimum number of racial riots. This is because our government has been doing a good job of mixing all the races up so that we all have an understanding of each other and can try to accept everyone and live in harmony.

4. Food variety

Singapore is known as the Heaven of Good Food for a reason. It does not matter whether you are in the mood for Japanese, Korean, Western or any other cuisine, as long as you are in the right place, it WILL be available.

5. Language

As long as you speak English, Mandarin and/or one other dialect, you will be able to communicate with any other person, especially if the three languages are mixed together in broken sentences, because that is, Singapore's  very own, unofficial language, SINGLISH. Found uniquely in Singapore and no other places.

6. Neighbouring countries

We have some of the best neighbours. Malaysia and Indonesia are less than half an hour away, depending on the exact location and things at sold at half the price, thanks to Singapore's rather strong currency.

7. Visas

Singaporeans are able to visit most other countries without going through the trouble of applying for visas.

8. Air-conditioners

Though we have equatorial temperatures, none of us are melting. Why? Because majority of the places in Singapore are fully air-conditioned.

Okay, I know that there are many other reasons why Singapore is a great place to live in., but many other reasons why we may need some more improvements. I'll end this post here today, and I am so sorry for not writing anything for so long.

Peacing out,
~ jessykeejiayi><

Study Tips

Hey guys!!!!

Its has been almost 3 months since I last posted anything, and I apologise. I have been really busy recently, and simply didn't have the time to write anything. But I'm back now, and I'll be back with a bang!

Now in today's post, I'll be talking about how to study! Okayy, I'm not the most qualified person in the world to talk about it, but I did graduate Primary School with a PSLE aggregate of 253. And I survived Secondary One education  relatively unscratched.

Since its the June holidays, I figured that this would be a good time to learn some new study tips, and maybe even change your game plan for the next semester.

Please do search around a little more for more tips, and find the one that really suits you best. I'm still searching too.

Tip No. 1: Find a good study spot.

Now this is really important since you will be spending quite a bit of time at your study spot reviewing your textbooks, notes, and god-knows-what-you-have, everyday. The location could be anywhere, really. It could be the Starbucks cafe near your house, it could be your school/ neighbourhood library, it could be a park, it could be your friend's house, but most of the time, it should be your own home, or more specifically, your room/ study room. Some people may have a study room in their home, but otherwise, your room works well too. Make sure that you are comfortable wherever you are.

For me, my study spot is a study room in my house, with the air-conditioning on and preferably a cup of hot drink by my side.

Tip No. 2: Determine if you can and/or want to work with music.

This is really not a one rule for all, because everyone is different. If you need music, do choose classical music, as it is said that classical music works best for studying. Sources may include: Mozart, Beethoven, studymusicproject (youtube). Don't worry if you don't know any good sources, just go to youtube, and search for 'best study music'. You will be literally SPOILT for choses, and eventually, you will find your favourite.

For me, I can't study with music. I get distracted too easily. But if I am at Starbucks, I am perfectly fine with the music there. Weird huh.

Tip No. 3: Don't be afraid to talk to your teachers.

I'll admit that the first time you walk up to try and ask for help can be scary. But you can always send an email instead. Often, your teacher's email can be found on your school's website. Most teachers are very willing to help you, and would be willing to meet you during the holidays, after school or during recess to clarify your doubts. Don't worry about teachers

For me, I belong to the group who can get the courage to talk to teachers. Just like, recently, I met with my History teacher for consultation on how to improve my History results and he gave me really good tips.

Tip No. 4: Know when your productive time is.

Some people study better in the day, some in the dead of the night. Find out when your own is.

For me, I study best in the morning, when it is quietest. But it's damn hard for me to wake up early in the morning. Frustrating huh?

Tip No. 5: Study everyday.

Okay, I know this is cliché, but do your revision regularly. Half an hour daily would probably be good enough for a normal school day, but as it gets closer to exams do increase that time period.

Tips No. 6: Do NOT, and I mean DO NOT... CRAM.

Cramming does NOT work. It'll just make your brain too tired on the day of exams.

Tip No. 7: Stay organised.

Write To-Do Lists, keep a bullet journal, file papers in different files, use a wall planner to block out study time, note down due dates, exam dates ect. This will save you a lot of time since it is less likely that you lose your materials and have to waste precious time finding them.

Tip No. 8: Look after yourself.

Now you can't study when you're sick, can you? So drink plenty of water, avoid too much fried food, or gorging yourself on sugary snacks.

Tip No. 9: Discover your learning style, and how to best make use of the advantages.

Contrary to popular belief, there are more than the commonly seen visual, kinetic and auditory learners. Find your style, and rock it from there.

Tip No. 10: Don't try to study 24/7, reward yourself.

You heard it, don't study too hard. You still need to find a balance between being a good student and having a life. Go out for an hour or so to exercise, catch a movie occasionally, watch TV, eat ice-cream. Relax every once in a while. But don't overdo this step and end up slacking, please.

Tip No. 11: Make your own study materials.

This way, you are actually doing twice the revision, once when you are making them, and once when you are doing your revision.

Now, this is not all, just a short compilation of  what I have came across in the past. Do do more research if you need more help. But that is not an excuse to slack off, okay?



Peacing out,
~jessykeejiayi><

Dedictating his lifetime to Singapore and to us

Hi again readers,

I believe that many of you have heard the sad news. If you have not, I am sorry I have to bring to you this message.

Our founding father, Mr Lee Kuan Yew, has passed on as of 23/03/2015, 03:18(Singapore time).

He was known as a charging lion, a father. The Cambridge educated man devoted his whole life to the building of the nation. In his hands, his leadership, we developed from a third-world nation, into a first-world country.

He worked hard, thinking of ways to improve the conditions in Singapore. His perseverance, his determination, his passion, his dedication has brought us to where

"I've spent a whole lifetime building this nation, and as long as I'm in charge, nobody is gonna knock it down."

This  is by far, my favourite quote of Mr Lee. Indeed, he spent his whole life building our country, from being our very 1st Prime Minister, to being a Minister Mentor, the 91-year-old continued serving the nation. He was in charge of Tanjong Pajar GRC for more than a decade.

He started the bilingual education system, which allowed us to be able to fluent in both languages, which in turn, allowed us to be able to carve our career in both ENglish and CHinese countries. Yet, we have people like Amos Yee being ungrateful.

Rip Mr Lee Kuan Yew and may you rest in peace.

Peacing Out,

~jessykeejiayi><

Neighbour Rivalry?

Hey guys,

Welcome to another blog post by me. Today's topic is as you can see, is neighbour rivalry. Now this is a story based on a true story.

Scenario
Now we have a housewife. As a housewife, of course she has to do the laundry, right? So when she hangs out the wet clothes to dry, guess what, her hands slipped and she dropped the bamboo pole together with the clothes. Seeing this, she panicked. She went straight out, and bought a box of chocolates. After that, she went down to her neighbour, offered the box of chocolates to them, and apologised, afeter taking back her bamboo pole.

Now, a couple of months later, the wind blew on of the bamboo poles down to the same neighbour''s house, and this time, the housewife got her husband to go down to retreive the bamboo pole because she was busy. The neighbour scolded the husband. Unfairness starts here right?

The husband is good-natured, and doesn't tell the housewife, but she can tell something is wrong.

When a bamboo pole appeared at the drying corner of the neighbour's house a few months later, the neighbour immediately assumed that it belonged to the housewife. They came up and confronted the housewife. After checking, the housewife told the neighbour that the bamboo pole did not belonged to her. And guess what the neighbour said, "After studying the bamboo pole of several possible household, the bamboo pole looked like it is yours."

*Disclaimer: If the situation sounds like what you have done to your neighbour, but you do not know me personally, then I am not talking about you. If you do know me or my relatives, then I don't know, deal with it, and improve your EQ, for goodness sake.*

Okay, guys, so what are your views on this? The neighbour is obviously too much, right? I mean, using basic common sense, why would anyone want to drop the bamboo pole down to you, purposely? And if you read carefully, everytime the bamboo pole dropped down, the family or the housewife would go down personally to take it, not wait for the neighbour to bring it up right? So what does this tell you about the neighbour? Do you readers also see something weird, why does the neighbour need to go from door to door to check whose bamboo pole is it? Why can't they just put it outside their house, or wait for someone to come collect it? They were obviously looking for a fight.

More than 80% of Singaporeans lived in HDB flats, which is actually a lot. Living in a HDB flat has its perks, like kids being more sociable, aunties are able to gossip with friends, and the family is able to join tours to neighbouring countries together. But what if one has neighbours who are unreasonable?

This would result in unhappiness in the neighbourhood. As neighbours, should we not be looking out for one another? Why make life difficult for each other? This I do not understand.

Well, just a little food for thought, if you have any stories of neighbours being either horrid or really nice to you, let me know in the comments section down below.

Peacing out,
~jessykeejiayi><

Update on my life

Heyy guys,

I needed a little break from revision for my Literature paper tomorrow so I thought, why not do an update on my life for you guys, so let's go. P.S. Wishing you guys a very happy Chinese New Year, and have a great year ahead! Have a great March!

20 facts:

1. My hobby has always been reading, but now I have another one- BLOGGING!
2. My aim has always been to get straight As, and this year, it is to try to get at least an A2 for all my subjects.
3. I do own pets, 2 little terrapins and I hope to be able to rear them till they grow up to be really old.
4. My birthday is on the 1st day of the second half of the year- 16th June.
5. I am a Snake born during the Gemini period.
6. I still have no idea what subject combination I want to choose at the end of this year.
7. I really want to do my parents proud by doing very well academically and in the future.
8. I am in love with my CCA- Multimedia Club.
9. Photography has been a favourite pastime.
10. My favourite colour is Sky Blue.
11. I like watching Youtube videos.
12. I watched Jack Neo's films growing up, and they are all awesome.
13. My idea of a perfect day would be a rainy day, where I would curl up indoors with a good book and a cup of Hot Chocolate or a Hot Green Tea Latte.
14. I like designing but I can't draw.
15. I would like to take a designing or event organising course in polytechnic when I graduate form Secondary School.
16. I am totally not a fan of being compared to others, I am me, my imperfections.
17. I know I don't have any right to give people advise, but what I can do is lend you a listening year and give you some options to help you through your difficult times.
18. I really look forward to the time where I would be 16 so I can go out and work part-time during the holidays.
19. I don't listen to songs I don't understand, like K/J- Pop, I listen to Chinese, English, and some Hokkien songs.
20. I will try to make my posts grammatically correct, so please correct me if I am wrong.

Right, so that is 20 facts about me, I will want to have a Q&A post soon, so leave me comments down below and I'll answer them when I get enough questions, deal?

Sorry for the blur pic, it wasn't this blur when I downloaded it

Peacing out
~jessykeejiayi><

A Not So Joyous Chinese New Year

Hi faithful readers,

This year, we student have a super long Chinese New Year break because of weekends, and this may be a good news for most, to those who do not have to cram visiting tens of relatives in just 2 days. But for me personally, this has to be one of the bleakest Chinese New Year, for that matter, one of the worst start to the year I have ever had.

To start things of, my great-grandmother passed away a couple of days into the new year. She had a 7-day funeral and I went straight there after school everyday. During that hectic 1-week, home was as good as a hotel, I only went back to sleep.

5 weeks later, my grandmother was admitted into the ICU and passed away a few days later. She had a 5-day funeral and this time, I attended it full-day. I skipped the entire week of school, and had a friend send me my homework, which I rushed out on the weekends. Home was again a hotel, and I realised what a big part of my life my grandmother was. The paragraphs below are dedicated to her, a wonderful, noble woman.


我亲爱的阿嫲，你过得怎样？在极乐世的生活好吗？我真的真的好想你。我想念你在家里做事时的背影，我很想念你在厨房的背影。那是我从电梯大堂跑到你家是一定会看见的背影。我想念你泡给我的米洛。只有你会把牛奶加进我的米路，使其如此甜。我想念你炒的炒饭-它有它特殊的味道，也许这就是你炒饭时放的爱。我想念你的咖喱。我总是说，对于我们在外面买的咖喱，我将咖喱倒在饭上。但是，对于由你煮咖喱，我会舀一碗，并里面添加一些饭。您的咖喱是永远不会太辣，但你曾经告诉我，你会很早很早起来，为了就是做全家庭喜爱的咖喱，有时甚至像这么凌晨4点这么早。那真的辛苦你了。现在，你终于可以好好休息。即使是你在家里较健康是的日子，你不会休息太久。就算您累到能在椅子上打瞌睡，您也不会放心地去小睡一会儿。
我真后悔没有把我的童年花在和你在一起的时光，但已经过去了，现在也没有办法改变。我很喜欢陪您去看牙医。我对让你跌倒的那时感到很内疚。我应该更好的照顾您。妈妈是对的，我笨，没用脑。我应该在你身后，帮助你，直到您安全地在德士里。有多少次，我发现自己希望我能有多一个品尝你的炒饭，咖喱的机会。多 少次，我发现自己希望我能与你只有多一天，无论是在医院还是在家里还是在你最爱的四马路逛街，陪伴着你。不管做什么，可以是最简单的事情- 在不晓得你知不知道我在你的身边时抚摸着你的手。 在隔离病房的那两天，当我不知道你是否知道我在那里抚摸着你的时候，那痛苦是非笔墨可形容的。但是，比什么是更痛苦的是不能够触碰到你，不能够看到你的本人，不能够和你谈心。阿嫲，我非常向你。但我知道如果我崩溃的话，您会担心，担心我，担心妈妈。所以我不会让你担心， 我会把思念隐藏起来，即使这意味着我会在睡前自己小声地哭我也会把思念隐藏起来。我不会在别人面前哭，不会让您或他们担心我。阿嫲，我非常爱你。
但愿我来世还能做你的孙女儿。

永远爱你，思念你的孙女，
佳怡


My beloved 阿嫲,

How are you? How's life in the world of eternal happiness? I really really miss you.

I miss the view of you doing stuff at home, I miss seeing your back in the kitchen whenever I run to your house from the lift lobby.

I miss the milo you make for me. Only you would add condense milk in my milo, making it so sweet.

I miss your fried rice-- it has a special taste in it, maybe it is the love you put in when cooking.

I miss your curry. I always say that for curry we buy outside, I will drizzle curry over the rice. But for the curry cooked by you, I will scoop a bowl of it and add some rice inside. Your curry is never too spicy, but you once told me that you will wake up so so early in order to cook the curry loved by the family, like 4am. It was really hard on you. Now, you can finally rest well.

Even in the days at home when you will healthier, you wouldn't want to rest for too long, even when you were so tired you would fall asleep sitting on a chair, just because you wanted to cook for the family, even though you would never get to eat the nice, hot food that we eat. you always eat the cold leftovers, but didn't mind at all.

I really regret not spending my childhood with you, but what has passed cannot be helped. I enjoyed accompanying you to the dentist. I feel so guilty for letting you fall that once. I should have taken better care of you. Mummy is right, I don't use my brain enough. I should have been behind you to help you get in the cab.

How many times have I found myself wishing I could have one more taste of your fried rice, your curry. How many times have I found myself wishing I could have just one more day with you, whether in hospital or not, doing a simple thing like stroking your hand, not even knowing whether you knew I was there, that was painful.

But what's more painful is not being able to touch you, not being able to see you in person, not being able to talk to you.

阿嫲, I miss you so much it hurts. But I know it will hurt you even more if I collapse on Mummy. She misses you so much as well. So I will hide it, even if it means I have to cry myself to sleep so I won't cry in front of others.

阿嫲, I love you so much.
I want to be your grandchild again in my next life, and the life after that, and the one after that, and for ever and ever.

Forever loving and missing you,
JiaYi


Guys, as you probably can tell by now, I really miss my 阿嫲. I probably won't blog for a while for now, what with school work, tests, common tests and CCA on top of nursing my broken heart. So so long for now guys, and I'm sorry.

Peacing out,
~jessykeejiayi><